Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

hellos!

continuation of my trip back home. hehe x)

DAY FOUR:(monday)

okay then, today rite, i went to my grandmother's house to dunno do what. hahaha. it was so boring. then rite, at about 2:30 we started going to school lor. hahaha. and omg, i found how unfit i was. i ran from the lobby to the P block and i was panting like crazy like i was going to die la. oh mann, before i could run that and like not get tired at all. sighhh....then rite, i went to the second level and waited there until school ended then i realised that slow's class was upstairs so i sprinted up the stairs and by then quite alot of people left already. then i saw CHIAAA!! hahaha. then i gave her her starbursts. then i was walking down to the canteen with chia then suddenly esther join us and started talking :/ hahahha. then i ate MEE POKK!! hahhaha. then slow and chia come watch me eat. hahaha. and i showed slow that pic of ben. I TOLD ALL YOU GUYS IT'S A BAD PIC U DON'T BELIEVE ME. hahahaha. but seriously, you have to see him in real life to see his shuai-ness. hahaha. oh man, me and chia talked so so so much. hahaha. we went to the staffroom to "see" teachers but i so paisei coz i din do well in sec 2 then go see teacher so diu lian. hahaha. and yes, i still rmb my chinese. hahhaa. then we walked around and talked and avoided bowness. hahaha. then chia had to go for club training so i went home. then we went to SICC to swim/gym and eat dinner. i can't believe my jiao lian still rmb me. hahaha. we must have been really naughty. hahaha. then rite, i went gym. then we ate. and i couldn't bathe coz i forgot to bring clothes. then we went back to my grandmother's house and stayed for like dunno how long. and i could only bathe at like 9pm at the hotel. sighh...hahaha. and i was so damn tired i conked out. hahaha. end of day 4

DAY FIVE:

WENT OUT WITH CHIAAAA!!!! HAHAHAHHAA. I LOVE YOU BESTIE. BFFL<333
omg, then i waited outside her classroom talking with cass for so friggin long coz mr teh was going through bio paper then he made the class stay back for like 1/2 an hour. it was so retarded. but meanwhile i caught up with cass. hahaha. and it was so funny coz we could see that totally NOONE was listening to mr teh. hahahaha. it was so funny. then finally they finished and me and chia walked to the busstop outside sc. then we got into this bus that was DAMN HOT. the aircon was blowing hot air and the windows could not be opened at all so we started sweating like crazy. then the acs barker guys came in and it got even hotter if that's even possible. hahaha. then halfway through, these guys couldn't take it anymore so they got off and we could hear them say like "omg so much better" then this random guy waved at me and chia and we bothed laughed like siao. hahaha. and then we finally reached far east and we jumped off the bus and it was SO COOOL. like first time ever that singapore weather was considered cool. hahaha. then we walked into subway and it was heavenly. hahahaha. then we ordered and ate lunch and talked and talked so much. hahaha. then we din noe what to do and mun yee kept smsing sarah to go ccab to watch bballers verse rgs but sarah totally din want. ahaha. so we walked to heren where we took NEOS! hahah. will post them another time. it was damn funny coz we totally din noe what pose to do or whatever so like all the pics look the same. hahaha. and my shirt got some wierd sparkly thingy in most of the fotos and i look so friggin wierd. hahaha. then we decorate also got no time to decorate finish so we only got to decorate four when we ordered like...eight? hahaha. but it was all good. ahaha. then after that we went to take bus to ccab but like on the bus, mun yee sms chia say the bball match finishing in 5 mins. hahahaha. oh man, that was so funny. so we went to rtc bus stop and i walked back. then rite, my mum say that she at the swimming pool so i went to have a swim and i found out that i din have the lung capacity to do a simple breastroke start. wth. i hate myself. then now, waiting to go out to dinner at some famous chicken rice restaurant with some relatives. yepp. end of day five.

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Monday, June 25, 2007

hey ya'll.

just waiting to go to SC. hahaha.
can't wait....really want to see what it looks like now. hahaha.
hopefully, i won't see cha cham bo or anybody like that. hahaha.
don't really feel like going into long talks about how aussie is like and how i'm doing there. don't even know what i'm gna say if they do ask me. if i tell them that i'm doing well, it's going to be saying something bad about the singaporean education and i don't think singaporean teachers are the right people to be criticising the singapore education to. hahha.

sigh...leaving in about 12 minutes. hahaha. btw, anybody here know how to put neoprints in the computer? do i scan it in? coz i'm hoping to post the neoprints that we took yesterday. hahaha.

going to SICC later. will probably be seeing jiao lian again. hahhaa. oh yea, will also be going to the gym. having dinner at SICC. hahaa. can't wait mannn...

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

I'M BACKKKKKK!!! :)

hehehehe x)

anws, i sh0uld start at the very beginning, coz that's a good place to start. hahaha.

DAY ONE:

We drove down the Brissie and on the way, we stopped at Gympie and i met Megan at MACCAS!!! hahahaha. oh man, what are the odds that we left on the same day at approximately the same time, and meet at the exact same macdonalds out of like the ten thousand there are on the way. hahahaha. oh well, what can i say? it was fate. hahaha. hope to catch up with her later on msn when i get back. hahaha. got lots of ask her. hehehe. anws, we arrived in Brissie at about 9-ish and i got to bathe and sleep.

DAY TWO:

We drove down to the GOLD COAST. oh yeaaaaa. hahahhaa. and we went to Dreamworld. I hereby vow to go the Waterworld some day coz it looks sooooooo fun. hahahhaa. so i sat on the Wipeout twice, the vortex twice and the rugrats one twice. hehehe. we also looked at the tigers and stuff. hahaha. oh, and my dad made us sit this really LAME ride and it was TOTALLY NOT SCARY AT ALL. and all the little kids were like screaming their heads off in the front and i was like," SHUT UP, I'M TRYING TO SLEEP!" hahahhaha. it was really funny.

oh yea, then we went to this ball pit thingy and all these guys kept throwing balls at me and hitting me on the head and butt and back and stuff. i got really pissed and hit them back. hahahaha.

then at about....4-ish, we headed back to Brissie only to arrive at about 5-ish. then we bathed, changed and got ready to go to the airport at about...8:30. hahaha. so we got there, checked-in blah blah blah...you know the drill. and we got on the plane to head back to Singapore.

DAY THREE:

okay, so i got really pissed at this air stewardess rite, she woke me up at like FOUR AM to ask if i wanted to eat any noodles. wth la. i was soooo tired and in the end i couldn't go back to sleep so i decided to eat. hahahaha. then rite, i also listened to lots of songs and i found two new totally awesome songs by...Nicole Pollet or something like that. i can't rmb her name but she's a British pop star and the two new awesome songs are called "Sophia" and " Learning the breathe". so yea, then we landed at like 5:20am and we met uncle Nam Wee who brought us to my grandmother's place. then rite, we rested and stuff until like 8:00 then we went to our old church and everybody was so surprised to see us and stuff. hahahaha. it was funny. then richard (lilliput) made me tell the whole confirmation class about how it's like in aussie and stuff. [for those of you in aussie, don't worry. i din insult it or anything. aussie's a really nice place. :D] then at about...10:30 -ish i got back to my grandmother's house and waited around until 12:00 when i went to the busstop to go the the scgs busstop to wait for slow, grace and whit.

slow and grace arrived and they were like wondering whether i was really me. hahaha. so when i waved at them grace let out with a loud "MICHELLEEEEE!!!" and...yea. you get the idea. hahaha.

sadly, whit couldn't make it so we went to far east to eat ice creammm:) hahaha. then we waited for Marie to come and then we went to take NEOS!! hahaha. it was so much fun. then gracie had to go and then me, slow and marie went downstairs to look at clothes and such. we din do much. I BOUGHT A LITTLE MISS TEEE!!! hahha. it's so cuteee. hahaha. anws, we walked around and din do much. then marie felt the need to go pee and to eat KFC. hahaha. so we did so. and they made me talk so much about *ahem *ahem and *ahem. hahaha. then rite, we went to the MRT station to topup marie's ezlink card. then we went to plaza sing. There, we took more neos and coz rite, the place din have scissors to cut with so we lameos went to the nearest shop and bought a pair of scissors for TWO BUCKS. hahahhaa. oh man, we are so lame. anws, MARIE OWES ME THREE DOLLARS THIRTY. hahaha. oh yea, i also bought a new buffer.

oh, and one more thing. OMG THE SINGAPORE WEATHER IS SO FRIGGIN HOT!! hahaha. everytime i step out of the shopping center or somewhere cool rite, i keep screaming HOTTT!!! hahahaha. coz i'm just so not used to it anymore. hahaha. and even my mum agrees with me, it's like, the air is so much heavier and it must have definitely affected my learning process. hahaha. and it sounds pretty l0gical. haahaha. but i wish slow and grace and marie and everybody who's not doing well here could go to aussie coz there are just so many more opportunities there for everybody and it's alot less stressful..sighs, i feel so bad that i have to go back and leave all of them here. anws, ALL THE BEST EVERYBODY. you'll make it someday, somehow. okay? love you guys!! <33

anws, that was my first 3 days of the holidays that i have passed and yea, it's been interesting and exciting and very very fun. hahaha. can't wait to go to SC tmr, then i can see everybody else. haha. and eat MEE POK!! hahahhaa. i miss all you guys in aussie too!! can't wait for school to start. hahaha. oh and to all those anxious people here in singapore that want to see that photo really badly, don't worry. i won't forget it tomorrow. hahaha. wells, this has been a long post and will continue updating asap.

despite all these fun things happening, i still can't help feeling a sense of regret for leaving singapore. it's like...there were so many things that i could have been here and i had so many opportunities here. so...sigh...but why should i worry? i'm home.

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

how do i explain this feeling?
the feeling i get when he walks into school
the feeling i get when his amber eyes meet mine
how his smile makes the day seem so much brighter even though it's raining.

the feeling i get when i can't tell him
how much i love him
how much i want to be his
how do i explain this feeling that tugs at my heart?

how do i explain love?

the beauty exposed ;

i'm a high school player. I play with my friends and with some of my enemies, but i respect everyone when i comes to my sport. I know i'm not going to get a multi-million dollar contract to play professionally. I know I may not ever get my name in the paper. I play for love of the game. For the pride and honour, for the blood, sweat and tears it takes to make the team, to earn the spot, to win the game. I play because I can. I play because I know that my life would be empty without the sport I play. I would have a lack of everything my sport gives me...integrity, courage, talent, fearlessness, pride, strength, stamina, will, and the heart of a champion. If I didn't play, I would lose a part of me.

I am an athlete. I'm a girl. I'm a champion, not because our team always wins, but because when we don't, we learn from our mistakes. We try to fix them, and most of all, we have fun. I have built lifelong friendships and memories because of my being an athlete. I leave everything on the field or court and continue to push myself. I am never happy with second place, but I have learnt to accept it. I have learned to get over and through my anger and be the athlete and player I have always dreamt of being. I don't play for my parents, for my family, for my friends; I don't play for my coach or my teachers or my school. I play for myself but when I am playing, I represent them. It isn't about winning or losing, but I hate to lose.

I won't settle for a tie, and I am not satisfied with 100%. To play, you have to sacrifice everything, your body, your time, your sweat, blood and tears...everything. For the team, I am a player, athlete and champion, not because i know what it is like to win, but because I know what it's like to lose. I know what it's like to feel the anger and pain that comes along with "second best". I have been that girl with tears in her eyes, walking out to receive the second place trophy and clapping as the other team, my opponents, receive the first place one. I know what it's like to lose, what it's like to win, to want to quit, to want to cry, to not want to get up. I know what it's like to hear the cheers and yells for you. I know what it's like to feel the pressure of everyone on your shoulders, and I know what it's like to choke under that pressure. I know what it means to be an athlete, a true player, and that is why i play.

I AM AN ATHLETE, A CHAMPION, A TRUE PLAYER - An Athlete's Pride.

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Sunday, June 10, 2007

'ello poppets!

hahaha. oh man, i sounded so much like hannah just then. hahahaha. oh wells, i feel like changing my blogskin but then again, it feels like it takes soooo much time to get it done and all. i've chosen one but i don't know whether i'll find the time to get it done or not. hahaha. oh wells.

well, studying has been...a drag. hahaha. but then again, why would it not be? aahaha. missing school loads and going through school withdrawal.

school withdrawal = me gaining weight

shit.

sighs..oh yea, NEW SONG ADDICTION TO RIDE OF YOUR LIFE FROM THE MOVIE 'WHAT A GIRL WANTS' BESTEST BEST SONG EVER!! :D

i feel hungry.

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Friday, June 08, 2007

hellooo!~

i had my english spoken today and mrs gardiner said that it had to be FIVE MINUTES THIRTY. wth man. ms furness told me it could be SIX MINUTES. so i SQUEEZED and talked really quickly to try and get it to fall in the 5.30 zone but i still went for six minutes and i went to complain to ms furness later on and she talked to mrs gardiner so i don't think i'll fail after all :D hahaha. i love ms furness. hahaha.

sigh...still got all these exams coming up next week. luckily monday is just a public holiday so i can rest for another day. *phew!* but there's maths on tuesday, catering(bleugh!) and science on wednesday and sose on thursday. there are also interviews on thursday but i already know that i'm gonna stuff that up so badly. but...heck care man. they can't make me fail my exams to prepare for some stupid interview for a job that i probably won't even get in the future. HAH! SO THERE!

we're finally starting bball in HPE and i'm oh-so-happie! hahaha. trust me, i'm better at bball and swimming than most sports. (yea, that's how sucky i am at sport.) so yea. but i'll be going to the gym every morning when i go back to singapore to get my fitness back. hahaha. I HAVE TO! i can almost feel all my ex-muscles turning into flabby flabs. (bleugh)

ERGH! somebody was SO SO irritating today. boasting about her friendship with somebody else and trying to make it out that they're oh-so-close when i know that they are so NOT. luckily she shut up quickly enough otherwise i'd seriously be slapping her in the face. >:(

so yea...feel really sleepy. kizzy wants me to join some talent competition. but i think i'm still gna be at the gold coast on that day so yea. hahahhaa. and also have masterclasses in july with jenni flemming or smb or other. oh man, i feel so bad that i forgot all about my catch-up piano lesson today. oh wells, hope mrs franklin has a good 6-week holiday in Europe! hahaha. she'll get over it i guess. wells, got lots of stuff to do tmr so...yea. another tiring day...

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

hey ya'll.

it's the third day of the 4 week holiday that we get this week and i can't wait to get back to school. hahaha. the exams are coming up and i have a feeling that i should start revising. hahahaha. oh yea, i just rmbed that there was a photo from year 10 camp that i'd forgotten to post so here it is:

that was when we were on top of coongara rock. hahha. i'm like...sitting down in front looking all cramped, wierd and awkward in my SICC yellow shirt. haha. if you can see in the background, you can kind of make out how high up we were. haahah. my lil' or should i say big guy buddy jake is sitting in front with his smexy bandana. hahaha. hotties standing in the backrow!!

hahahah. will definitely try and get that camp dvd thingy for all you guys to see asap kaes. and to all you peeps out there who still don't know, CAMP WAS THE BOMB DIGGITY :p

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Friday, June 01, 2007

hey ya'll!

NEWSFLASH: BUNDY SHOW IS THE BEST EVERRRRR<333.
my dad told me that i could go on ONE ride. and i could choose it. so i wanted to go on this one called the 'extreme speed' but my mum took one look at it and din allow me to go. sigh..MUMS. so i picked another one called the 'hangover' and i was screaming before the ride even started. hahahaha. and my sister was like," I'LL BE A GOOD GIRL! I WON'T WATCH TV EVER AGAIN! I'LL DO MY HOMEWORK!!!" hahahahaha. it was sooooo funny aye. so like...yea.
then we went to buy fish and chips and then went back to the show to watch the fireworks at 7.30 and it was really cool. hahahaha.
man...i'm going to the bundy show again next year. hahah. but i won't go with my family this time. hahaha. anybody wanna come? lols.

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